Did I mention I have hair

I have hair now.  It's multicoloured and thick and wavy.  It's funny looking.  Here's a recent photo of it.  My last chemo was early January so it didn't take very long to get it all back.  It is only a bit shorter than my usual cut.

My last regular radiation session was today.  I have boosts beginning tomorrow until Friday.  The radiated area will be smaller. I hope it's small enough to leave my poor nipple alone.  It is so sensitive and dry. Other than random pain, much like period boobs, I also get stabbing pains. It's difficult to describe the pain but if you ever jammed your hand in a car door that might give a glimpse.  The stabbing likes to surprise me and pop up when I least expect it. You know what I mean. Like when I'm pouring milk or talking to the bank on the phone. That is rare though.  Most of the time it is just a dull ache.  Not even worth taking a Tylenol. Other than that I am as tired as I have ever been.  I appreciate the e-mails and comments I have been receiving.  I will reply, I promise.  I have to go to sleep now before I start sleep-writing. 

Cheers
Jeannie

Wanna see the boob?

Just in case I didn't mention this, I would like to buy a new set of boobs. Any Nova Scotians get free/discounted boobs? Don't get me wrong, I am super grateful to have been treated, NO COSTO, I always wanted little fun bags and figure now is as good a time as ever to get 'er done.

Anyway, if anyone would like to see what a 'revised' breast looks like just inbox me and I will try to arrange a viewing. I know I was very curious what mine would look like after the surgery. Then I wanted to see what it would look like after radiation.

My boobs are yours...

Cheers
Jeannie

I see lights ahead!

I remember reading about the side effects of radiation and thinking, 'big deal, that will NOT happen to me.' What an asshole. I am so tired that when I am not sleeping I am fantasize about sleeping. When I'm awake I have that dull headache that we get when we didn't get enough sleep. I even dream about sleeping when I am sleeping.

I love the suggestions in the books that we should take no more than a 20 minute nap or ensure we get exercise to combat the fatigue. I dare anyone to suggest that to my face. I would beat them to death with the book, well, warn them that I would beat them with the book in the summer when I can actually lift it over my head. Anyway, enough about that.

My hair is coming in fast and furious. It is lighter and a bit curly. It's very soft. I will soon need a hair cut. It's nice to have hair again.

My breast is quite sore. The nipple is extremely sensitive and the areola is getting very dark. Charred like a baked potato. The skin around that has taken a dimply, orange peel look. The entire breast, which is obviously much smaller because half was loped off in a surgical suite, is actually getting smaller and firmer. I need to hold it going up and down stairs and even the shower stream hitting it hurts like a mother fuc.., er, I mean, hurts a lot. I have been blessed that I have not had any blistering or burning of the skin. That is worth all the icky stuff that has happened.

My periods returned this month, twice to be exact with little more than a week between them. I see Dr. K. next month and will ask to have my hormone levels checked.

All that aside I have seven more rad treatments left. It's going to be very odd when I no longer have to go to the hospital...odd but exciting. It was a bit more of a journey than I expected but the end is so near I can taste it.

Cheers
Jeannie

PS. Anyone else notice the references to food and eating in that post. LOL

My New Weight Loss Blog is now live

Click here to view: "For God's Sake...put your clothes back on!"

For anyone who followed me on my cancer journey, stay tuned and watch me recover my old life.  My new Blog is called "For God's Sake, Put your clothes back on". 

"Calm Down! It's Just a Little Cancer" will still be active but kept exclusively for posts relating to cancer. So come on over and watch me kick another ass ;o)

Cheers
Jeannie

PS.  There are pics to make fun of on the site!

Looking for Diet-mates

I have a friend who would like to lose weight as well. We will begin Monday. If anyone else is interested in trying The Carb Lovers Diet with us, let me know.

"Sticks in a bundle cannot be broken"

Cheers
Jeannie

I'm a Total Screwup

Ok, last weeks diet didn't go so well. I was losing about a pound a day but then Easter happened. So, let's call that a practice run. I am back to 160 lbs so I didn't bother taking new photos.

So, I will start again tomorrow. I need to pick up a few things and this time I won't stray. I could spank myself but my god those mashed potatoes, sweet potato, sugared turnip, gravy, chocolate cake, donair, chips....So delicious! Dieting sucks.

I have radiation today. I haven't been there since Thursday. It was a nice break.

Cheers
Jeannie

PS. I want to say a huge thank you to Andrea Brown for hosting all the activities this weekend. You are super!

I have a sore boob

So today I completed my fifth rad treatment (25% or 1/4 completed)...only 15 more to go. I am feeling great. I need to nap every day because I'm sooo tired. My little breast is sore. It feels like period boob. It looks like cottage cheese. I don't recall reading or hearing about cottage cheese boob but I am sure it is normal.

So here is a recap:
~ my hair is growing very fast. I am a chia pet. We cannot identify the colour. It is a mix of blonde, grey, silver, white and brown. It is soft like baby hair. As for the rest of my body, well, all that came back fast and furious as well. No ambiguity about the colour there.

~ still trying to figure out the cup size of my baby boob. It's small but not small enough. I want 'Kate Hudson' breasts. Okay, and maybe her ass and tummy. I'm only 50 lbs away from that goal.

~ the diet is going well. I am losing one pound a day so far. I love the food and get to eat a piece of toast every morning if I wish...and a bananas and cheese. Yay!

~ I had a great time in the Dominican. Drank from 10 until 6 every day and went to bed early every night except my last night. That was not my smartest decision...the staying up part, not the drinking part. That didn't hurt at all.

~ I haven't had a period in months and my happy heart is also reacting a bit to the hormone change. I am actually feeling a bit moody and I don't like that. I didn't even think to give thanks before I got outta bed this morning. I have to really focus on happy which is odd.

~ I removed all my clothes from my bedroom except the few things I can actually wear. My wardrobe is very limited but I like having few options. I am not exaggerating if I said that between Hannah and I we disposed of hundreds of items. So sad to have so much. Never again!

~ at this moment I would have unprotected sex in the middle of Charlotte Street - at lunchtime - with an AIDS infected leper in exchange for a warm brownie with ice cream if it was less than 100 calories.

Cheers
Jeannie

@ Joyce Nicholson

Can you email me at jeanniekfraser@gmail.com :o)Thank you!

Week 1 April 2 - 8 ; Carb Lovers Diet Phase I The Kickstart

OMG I cannot believe I am doing this. However, since early Autumn 2011 I have been taking advantage of my diagnosis and eating anything that comes within reach. Evolution has actually caused my arms and my tongue to extend beyond their regular reach. I can now lick the bottom of the peanut butter jar and also reach other people's food from across the room. Unfortunately I still only have one stomach and sluggish metabolism. Soooo, here's the deal...

The Carb Lovers Diet:
Seven Day Kickstart Plan: 1200 cals a day, I follow the pre-created menu and should drop about 6 lbs. This phase helps kick the sugar addiction and create rapid weight loss. Both will give more incentive to continue on in a positive fashion. Believe me, if I thought for one second this wasn't going to work I would NEVER pose in a bathing suit and post it here. Every Monday I will post my pics and body stats and totally shame myself. It doesn't matter though because I need your help.

So, here it is: bust 40", waist 36", hips 44.5", weight 161 lbs. God help me...please blur your eyes when looking at the pictures ;o)

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