Im all cuddled up watching Zumba, drinking tea and snuggling with my doggies. Again, how blessed am I? So far the nausea has stayed away and hope it never shows up. My final weigh in at chemo on Friday was 162 lbs. I gained 20 lbs since my surgery. So I have 30+ pounds to shed. I hope watching Zumba will help. Actually, it's making me sick watching it. I'm totally not ready for that yet!
On a serious note I want to emphasize that I know cancer is very serious. I have a very dear Aunt who finished her treatments for cancer in the Spring but apparently it didn't work. She was informed that the spots on her lungs are not treatable. I believe with lots of positive thoughts and prayers directed in her direction she will feel peace and comfort and perhaps even heal. Her name is Jenny and I would appreciate if everyone would add her to your prayer list.
I have a few things to add to the chemo side effect list that I forgot to add. One is a runny nose. Doesn't sound too bad does it. Remember what I said about losing all my hair...that included my nose hair. So while your nose drips gather in your nose hair and form boogers mine just drips out but only the left nostril. When I touch my nose (usually with my sleeve) as often as I do I develop a sore in my nose. It's the kind that makes your eyes water like you were peppers sprayed!
Did I mention the chemo brain yet? I forget everything. I eat lunch twice forgetting I already ate. Making tea takes forever. Normal tea routine: boil kettle, dump yesterday's tea bags out, add new ones, pour boiling water in teapot. My tea routine: fill kettle, dump yesterday's tea bags, remember I didn't turn kettle on, turn kettle on, get clean dog dishes to feed the fur babies, get milk, get skillet and put on burner to warm up, get kibble, empty dishwasher, load dirty flat wear with clean flat wear, remember tea, turn kettle on to reboil, turn off skillet because don't remember why it's on the stove ready to melt, wonder why dogs are staring at me while I eat a bowl of mini wheats. They look from me to the clean empty dishes, finish eating, put kibble in dish and sprinkle cheese over it, leave it on counter to reset kettle again, add tea bags to pot and organize tea and coffee cupboard, remember hungry canines, give them dishes of food, pour juice and take medicines, respond to the click of the kettle begging for mercy, pour water in teapot,search for top of teapot, find in dishwasher, add milk to my cup and wait for tea to steep, pup pups outside, turn on tv, have mini rest, remember I made tea and pour myself a cup. Sit down with iPad forgetting about tea until it is cold. Pour another cup.
A similar process follows involving the bed, washing machine, dryer, toilet and spare room. Everything I do takes a loooong time. Shopping, even with a list is horrible. This should begin to clear up I suppose when I'm detoxified. I can't wait to have a memory. As I sat waiting for the show to begin at JP Cormier's B-day bash last night I had no idea why I was there. I had to ask hubby. I thought I might have been waiting for a magic show to begin.
The last thing I will mention is a sore tongue. I don't get sores but my tongue is sensitive so it hurts to eat and drink. Obviously it hasn't slowed me down though.I say Thank God for this side effect. Imagine how much I would weigh if I could eat everything I wanted. I would be wearing a moo moo, typing with pencils, eating hot wings being fed to me via a conveyer belt. Small blessings indeed.
Well, it is time for a nap so I will say adieu to you, and you and you :o)
Cheers
Jeannie
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Sunday, January 8, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Yup, I'm a celebrity....LOL
I have to start out by saying that I don't want my friends to be intimidated by my improved social status. Yes, obviously I am better than you now but we can still be friends...secret friends but that just makes it all the more special. Remember, I am still the same girl I was Wednesday just REALLY popular. I still eat my caviar one spoonful at a time, just like the better people in the world ;o)
As most of you already know my little blog has made the front page of the Halifax Herald yesterday. I was as floored as everyone else when my husband woke me up to tell me the news. Well, not floored but very surprised because I didn't expect to see it until next week. I would like to thank Pat Lee from the Herald for taking an interest in my story and for not making me sound like a douche in the article.
I will be interviewed by Jackie Torrens from the CBC Radio at 3 pm tomorrow. The show is called 'Close to Home'. Pretty exciting eh!
Apparently the loud bang I heard from upstairs wasn't a ghost but the gigantic bottle of laundry soap which I left the cover off hitting the floor. Hannah described the spilled quantity as '8 towels worth'. I don't think she meant enough to wash 8 towels but 8 towels worth the soaking up...groan :o( now I'm going to have a big clean spot on the floor.
I want to give sincere thanks to everyone who has phoned, e-mailed, sent messages, commented on my posts or responded on Facebook. As uninteresting as my own story is I am glad to have the opportunity to spread the message that cancer isn't necessarily a death sentence. I really appreciate hearing your stories. I'm honoured that you want to share with me.
Anyway, I have a lot of soap to clean up so I better go. My final chemo is tomorrow...Yay!
Remember, We have nothing to fear but fear itself....and spiders!
Cheers
Jeannie
As most of you already know my little blog has made the front page of the Halifax Herald yesterday. I was as floored as everyone else when my husband woke me up to tell me the news. Well, not floored but very surprised because I didn't expect to see it until next week. I would like to thank Pat Lee from the Herald for taking an interest in my story and for not making me sound like a douche in the article.
I will be interviewed by Jackie Torrens from the CBC Radio at 3 pm tomorrow. The show is called 'Close to Home'. Pretty exciting eh!
Apparently the loud bang I heard from upstairs wasn't a ghost but the gigantic bottle of laundry soap which I left the cover off hitting the floor. Hannah described the spilled quantity as '8 towels worth'. I don't think she meant enough to wash 8 towels but 8 towels worth the soaking up...groan :o( now I'm going to have a big clean spot on the floor.
I want to give sincere thanks to everyone who has phoned, e-mailed, sent messages, commented on my posts or responded on Facebook. As uninteresting as my own story is I am glad to have the opportunity to spread the message that cancer isn't necessarily a death sentence. I really appreciate hearing your stories. I'm honoured that you want to share with me.
Anyway, I have a lot of soap to clean up so I better go. My final chemo is tomorrow...Yay!
Remember, We have nothing to fear but fear itself....and spiders!
Cheers
Jeannie
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Who needs a 'Bucket List' when you can have a 'F@$k It' List
Wow...2011 is over and 2012 is here. I fully expect this to be my year! Instead of making a list of resolutions or a Bucket List that I will break or never complete I have come up with my own way to start the year. I call it my 'Fu@k-it List'. This list will contain desires and commitments followed by the statement, "although this is my desire or wish if I don't get it done then fu@k it". This is my design to remove the guilt that comes with breaking resolutions. Feel free to adopt this modified tradition.
I do have to mention that the last six months, although sprinkled with some discomfort, opened my eyes to the beauty of humanity. I have met so many people who have approached me with their own stories of how breast cancer has affected their lives. Strangers hug me, others tell me I'm beautiful while others call me brave and inspirational. Although I do nothing except to live my life the best I can I no longer argue with people when they compliment me. If they say I'm beautiful then they are seeing me in a different light than I see myself. When they tell me I'm brave and inspirational why bother saying that bravery is a reaction to fear. I have no fear of this disease. I am not brave. Ask anyone who has watched me rip my clothes off because I think a spider is crawling on me. People who get on planes without taking Adivan are brave. If I inspire people it is undeliberate but it makes me feel good that I make others feel good by doing absolutely nothing. Being lazy has never been so rewarding :o)
Here is my advice,the only advice I can offer: when something difficult enters your life you have two choices on how to deal with it. You can be miserable or you can be happy. Regardless of which you choose you still have the hardship to deal with. I faced this challenge head on knowing without a single doubt in my mind that although I would have some pretty shitty (quite literally) days I was going to be fine. Knowing that has made this journey pretty easy for me. So for anyone else out there who is facing a challenge the best I can say is to keep your chin up, keep smiling and know that worrying will only contribute negatively to your situation. Stressing and worrying about your hardship or someone else's is counter productive and damaging. Meditate or pray for good only. Don't feed the negative or it will grow. Positive thinking is the magic elixir of life. Drink it.
So to all the beautiful, brave, inspirational people who have taken the time to offer me prayers and raise my spirit with their words, let me say thank you and Happy New Year. May this year be filled with the blessings of good health, the comfort of family and friends and the riches of a peaceful heart and mind.
Cheers
Jeannie
PS. My final chemo is Friday...wooo hooo!
I do have to mention that the last six months, although sprinkled with some discomfort, opened my eyes to the beauty of humanity. I have met so many people who have approached me with their own stories of how breast cancer has affected their lives. Strangers hug me, others tell me I'm beautiful while others call me brave and inspirational. Although I do nothing except to live my life the best I can I no longer argue with people when they compliment me. If they say I'm beautiful then they are seeing me in a different light than I see myself. When they tell me I'm brave and inspirational why bother saying that bravery is a reaction to fear. I have no fear of this disease. I am not brave. Ask anyone who has watched me rip my clothes off because I think a spider is crawling on me. People who get on planes without taking Adivan are brave. If I inspire people it is undeliberate but it makes me feel good that I make others feel good by doing absolutely nothing. Being lazy has never been so rewarding :o)
Here is my advice,the only advice I can offer: when something difficult enters your life you have two choices on how to deal with it. You can be miserable or you can be happy. Regardless of which you choose you still have the hardship to deal with. I faced this challenge head on knowing without a single doubt in my mind that although I would have some pretty shitty (quite literally) days I was going to be fine. Knowing that has made this journey pretty easy for me. So for anyone else out there who is facing a challenge the best I can say is to keep your chin up, keep smiling and know that worrying will only contribute negatively to your situation. Stressing and worrying about your hardship or someone else's is counter productive and damaging. Meditate or pray for good only. Don't feed the negative or it will grow. Positive thinking is the magic elixir of life. Drink it.
So to all the beautiful, brave, inspirational people who have taken the time to offer me prayers and raise my spirit with their words, let me say thank you and Happy New Year. May this year be filled with the blessings of good health, the comfort of family and friends and the riches of a peaceful heart and mind.
Cheers
Jeannie
PS. My final chemo is Friday...wooo hooo!
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